Origins of Problems

Story Time

It’s been 2 weeks since I was gifted a sleep mask. Kept it on me since then, whenever I needed to stay night(s) out of the house. I hadn’t really needed it because I could control the amount of light with a curtain. But the man who always sleeps with his machete is a fool all nights but one. I visit Volta for a funeral and I would need to share a room with relatives. Since it’s the village and my bones scream of exhaustion, I pack light and basic. I rush. It’s night time in the village and sleep has a firm hold of me. I decide to give in and go inside. I’m the last to go to bed and the lights are on. The desire to sleep is strong, yet the light says I’m the captain now. I don’t know these people like that but I want to sleep but the light is on and I don’t want to make someone feel uncomfortable because what if they sleep with the light on!?. I ramble on in my head and I think oh!, if only I had taken my sleep mask.

Something to think of here is this: do you think I would be having problems sleep masks could fix if I didn’t own one?

There are a couple of lessons that could be taken from this:

You know nothing

Thinking you need to consider all possible scenarios is chess play and unless you’re playing chess moves with every single move you make, including subconscious ones, then you need to chill out. Unless you can see all the moves in chess, then by all means go ahead and predict how things will turn out even though every single thing in the world is moving the same as you. You can manage my affairs.

The man who knows everything is an object to complete grief.
- Me

Never rush, even when it has to do with a life

This is in no way disregarding a sense of urgency. Two very different things. Rushing is manifested when the need for validation (by others or your alter ego) pushes you to make decisions without thinking them through. Calm down and speak to yourself, like yourself

No What Ifs

What if is a silly statement if you think about it. What If what? What if?? What If??? What does the answer to “what if” fix exactly? It’s not important is it????. That’s a completely tiring exchange I have internally when I have to think of What Ifs. I decided to stop listening and I started seeing attentively

You can’t be too prepared

Way better to be caught with it than without it.